Psalm 69:1-36
Interesting that this was today's reading with how I've been feeling physically lately.
I've had consistent headaches, a scare with swelling in my leg (I've had blood clots in the same leg in the past -- this time the doc thinks it's just phlebitis, pending a venous doppler ultrasound if the pain worsens), some extra anxiety over work, home, finances, then worrying about my headaches and leg doesn't help -- kinda goes in a circle. When I don't feel well, I panic. I'm so afraid of getting sick in some way and not being here to raise L.J. I have good general health (blood pressure, cholesterol, etc. -- all good), but these freaking headaches freak me out and now I'n worried about my legs on top of it. What's starting to worry me as I get into my 40's is that my grandmother and father both passed away from sudden heart attacks at relatively young ages, 68 and 59 respectively. Hence, I start to freak about every little ache and pain. <Sigh>
Anyway, sickness has little to do with today's reading, but since it has to do with what seems to be ... inner turmoil, it kinda tied together for me. The inner turmoil caused by the hatred from others the writer seems to face because of his dedication and service to God. He pleads with God for mercy for being so faithful, but also asks for a revenge of sort on his foes.
This touched me because lately I feel like I've been doing a little bit of pleading for better health. I know that if I apply myself to better health, that God, through prayer, will help me the rest of the way.
Till tomorrow....xoxo
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