My first time!

So here I am, a new blogger!  I'm actually a little nervous, because I want the blog to be raw and honest, but still more light than dark....although we all have our days!  I feel sometimes that I can't REALLY put everything on FB because, quite frankly, 95% of the people on the friend's list, probably don't care.  They join our lists to just sorta see what we've been up to all these years, maybe check out our kids, see what type of work we do, if we made anything out of ourselves since school...but you never hear from them.  I often think about cleaning through my friends list, I've done it once or twice, and deleted people who either were just way too negative constantly, way too much cursing, and I wasn't close to them to begin with so what was the point, right?  But I find that I keep a lot of people for the same reasons I think of deleting them....I see what they made of themselves, check out their kids, but don't really say anything...which leads me to believe I must be something of a FB hypocrite...lol.  So my friend's list mostly remains in tact.  Since I feel the need to be mostly pleasant and happy on FB, it leaves little room to sometimes just say what I really feel, where I can get it out of my system, and have control over who I let see what.  Therefore, not hurting feeling, and hopefully, the people that decide to follow actually do care if I'm having a hard time/bad day, and don't necessarily mind if I am whining too much. :)  I want a place to blog my life and not feel judged...I most certainly cannot do that on FB...or I guess I could, but I play the game like I suppose many do.  Perfect husband, perfect kid, perfect job, perfect pics....to many which I would like to scream BULLSHIT, and do often scream that at my computer.  Sometimes I'm pretty sure FB exists just so I can feel bad about myself...lol.  Funny thing is, I'm more addicted to it than most people I know.  So here's to my first post on my first blog. You will get sick of my pics of my not-so-perfect kid, but perfect to me in every way.  You will get sick of hearing about my job, or my husband...but you can trust it will be truly how I feel...as bi-polar as it may come off...you know, I'm in love with everything in one post, and the very next post I'm ready to go postal.  But I'm just me, and I'm done apologizing for it!